Saturday, May 10, 2008

two questions and a laugh

Micah and I went to Tullahoma and back today. I discovered that Micah really doesn't like to listen to Brian's sermons on tape and that I can reach a pacifier almost anyplace in the car. During the few minutes of silence in the car ride I spent some time in prayer (I keep my eyes open for safety). Two questions were given to me.
The first question comes from something I have been thinking about for awhile. What would you fight for?
Most of us would fight for family, friends, and freedom. I know that I will do anything in my power to protect Micah. I don't think a momma bear would be more ferocious. Now put that in perspective of having a heavenly father that created everything. Don't you think he would fight and do anything for us? I know he is for me.
This leads me to the next question. What would it take for you to stop following God?
Kathy's death shattered me. A healthy, young woman with a newborn baby and a loving husband--suddenly removed from the family she created. The woman I love and had planned to spend the rest of my life with taken from me on a day we had looked forward to since we first discussed it. Would this be enough for me to turn from God? The same God who could cure any illness, heal any disease, even bring people back to life...but chose not to. I don't know what is going on in your life, but few of you reading this could have a better excuse to be mad at God than I do, but the crazy thing is I am not. If anything, I love God more. God did not take Kathy from me to punish me, or to be mean. God's master plan required her to leave at that time. I don't know why and I may never know, but I do know that God's plan is the best plan. If one person grows closer to God because of Kathy's death then I will continue to follow God. So I ask you again, What would it take for you to stop following God? It better be a good reason.
I don't want to leave you on such a serious note because I want you to return to this blog. So I will tell you something fun. Micah has started to laugh, but I use "laugh" loosely. He opens his mouth and inhales making a high pitched squeal. He kind of curls the edges of his mouth during this noise. He also has started a grunting noise that I interpret as him telling me off, probably because I don't feed him quickly enough.
I hope you found this blog worth the large amount of time it took to read. Remember to always tell the people you love how much you love them.
Nathan

6 comments:

Karen said...

Thank you so much for your testimony, faithfulness, and witness. I was just saying at small group, how much you encourage me with your faith in the most difficult of times. Perhaps, God's plan was for you to witness to me...thank you! I love you and pray that God continues to work through you and Micah.
P.S. It was worth every second it took to read your blog!!
Your sister in Christ,
Karen Ewing

Addie Talley, Photographer said...

this was a great post, thanks for sharing your thoughts

Cindy said...

Thanks so much for sharing these wise observations. Never hesitate to share what you feel. Your words have meant a lot to me.

I've enjoyed following the blog these past few weeks. Please know that you and Micah and your families are in my thoughts and prayers.

Cindy Posey

Traci Vanderbush said...

This blog is definitely worth reading. Thank you for sharing your story. I praise God that you love Him and do not turn away from Him. Two of my dear friends lost their 5-yr-old in a car accident 2 years ago and I have been inspired and overjoyed by their response. They seek God more and love Him more passionately than ever before. Sometimes I think that they must be so close to their little girl. Jesus said, "The Kingdom of Heaven is at hand." That means it is within reach. When I see them press into His presence, I get the sense that they are right there where their daughter is. It's beautiful. God bless you.

Anonymous said...

Nathan,This is Ryan and Megan's mom from NY. I am so sad for your loss and so happy for you to have your precious son. This blog is a blessing to read and every word means so much. God bless both of you. It is inspiring to see such faith in all you write and your outlook on life. You are truly an inspiration to all who follow this blog.

Tami said...

Wow Nathan! You're such an inspiration! Thank you for posting this entry! I'm amazed in your faith and can only hope and pray that I'd feel the same if put in a similar situation!!! God bless you and Michah. :)